I have a shopping addiction. There, I said it. The first step of healing is admitting I have a problem right? So I admitted it. I'm thinking about going a whole year without shopping. I have a problem. I know I have a problem. And it...NEEDS TO STOP!!
More specifically, I have a shopping addiction to lululemon. It is so bad that I know approximately what time of the day on the specific day of the week that they update their website with new products and when they add new products to their clearance page, two different days of the week of course! I purposely made my password to my lululemon account related to my son in hopes that before I decide to proceed with a purchase, I keep him in mind. But this hasn't stopped me. I proceed, with guilt, and purchase products online week after week after week. I don't even want to look at how much money I spend on the website. The bad thing about this is...well there are a bunch! But what sticks out in my mind is that I have spent thousands of dollars on clothes that I really don't need. I try and think about who I am trying to impress and sometimes I think it's just because I like getting mail but then I go shopping at places like TJ Maxx and I spend all kinds of money because everything is SO MUCH CHEAPER than lululemon. Which is kind of stupid because practically everything is cheaper. Well, TJ Maxx also gets me because I always have to walk over to the children's section, and almost always my son "Big" is with me. So I almost always, well probably every time with maybe one or two exceptions, I leave the store with something for him. Whether it's veggie chips from the checkout aisle (they are smart for making you walk through a bunch of stuff you really don't need while waiting in line), or a book, a toy, sippy cups, or some clothes I "needed" to get him, I pretty much always need to get him something. You'd think by now I'd learn just not to go into places like this. But being, somewhat of, a stay-at-home-mom I find that shopping is what I do as a leisurely activity. Running is fun but I have to time it perfectly. Big has to be fed, well-rested, and the sun can't be too high in the sky where the UV rays are going to damage his skin or his eyes...excuses excuses I know.
I am a business woman and have been taught to have a 5-year and a 10-year plan for my business. Within my current 5-year plan I would like to have a small storefront where I can display and showcase my jewelry line. Right now I have nowhere near the amount of capital needed to start a venture of this magnitude (add drama here). In order for me to do this I need to be smarter with my money and step 1 to doing this is to stop buying things I don't need.
In the next few days I'm going to start brainstorming because I'll need to set some rules and boundaries since I'll obviously need to purchase necessities throughout the year. So today I am putting it in writing that in 2014 I will not shop.
Yikes.
